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LEES HIER: Drosverkragter se gedig en brief aan slagoffer
Nicholas Ninow in die getuiebank in die hooggeregshof in Pretoria. Hy het Woensdag ter strafversagting getuig. Foto: Isabel Venter

Volgens Ninow was die verkragting van sy sewejarige slagoffer "'n oomblik van waansin" nadat hy homself drie dae lank aan dwelms en drank oorgegee het.  Ninow het gesnik toe hy in die hof getuig het dat hy berou het oor wat gebeur het, "maar my spyt is te laat."

Die staat voer aan dat Ninow bloot simpatie soek met sy brief en gedig en dat hy nooit deur die loop van die verhoor 'n poging aangewend het om verskoning aan die slagoffer en haar familie te vra nie.

Volgens Ninow het hy verskeie weergawes van die brief geskryf, maar het hy dit op regsneming weerhou totdat die saak afgehandel was.

 

Hier is die brief wat hy aan die slagoffer se familie gerig het:

Writing you this letter is tough for me.

I don’t really know how to use the correct words, how to say what is truelly (sic) on my heart, or to put my feelings onto paper, however I am going to do my absolute best: I know at this stage life is extremely hard for you and that coping is not easy, although I would never truelly know exactly how you feel or what you are going through.

I do know that its all because of me.

I know an apology will never be good enough or take away all your pain. I do however hope that one day you would be able to find some form of comfort in this letter.

I would not blame you however if you don’t believe a word I am saying and I also would not blame you if you if you could never forgive me for what I had done.

I know how much hurt and pain I have caused you and also know that I would never be able to make it right. 

I struggle with forgiving myself for what I had done and have many things I regret doing in the past, my biggest one being what I did at that restaurant.

I had way to much to drink and was also using a lot of drugs, although it is not an excuse, I just want to say that I know deep in my heart that I would never have done such an awful and evil thing in my sober state of mind.

My addiction has caused a lot of hurt to many people and has torn families apart, including my own. Although an apology might be meaningless to you, I would like to apologize wholeheartedly to you regardless.

As I said before I know I would never be able to fix this, however I would like to one day prove to you that I am more than just a nobody and how to make it up to you.

I don’t know how and I will need professional help and guidance, however I promise to do my absolute best to earn your forgiveness as well as your daughter’s forgiveness above all else.

I want you to know that I did not plan this and I also did not intend to cause any harm that day.

I honestly don’t know what possessed me in that moment in the bathroom and I am 100% deserving of punishment and all the bad publicity.

I hope one day you could forgive me once I’ve prove worthy of that forgiveness. 

I am so sorry.

Nicholas Ninow

*

Ninow het ook 'n gedig aan die slagoffer geskryf getiteld:

  

A Cold September’s Day

  

A broken heart, 

of an innocent child, 

her family falls apart, 
and that’s putting it mild,    

 

She may never forgive, 
nor even forget, 

the pain I would leave, 

and forever regret,    

 

She may never understand, 

and often be confused, 
not knowing where she stands, 

nor why she was abused,   
 

She would awaken once again, 

from the same bad dream, 

barely even ten, 

tears flowing like a stream,    

 

With her mother by her side, 

they sit and mourn as one, 
and even though they tried, 
they could never see the sun.    

 

With the morning on its way, 

she’d soon have to go to class,

 always wishing she could stay, 
but knowing she has to pass.    

 

and during this all, 

he sits in his cell, 

staring at the wall, 

knowing he’s in hell,    

 

With a blade in his hand, 

he could take away the pain, 
buried beneath the sand, 
feeling peaceful and sane,    

 

The blade at his wrist, 

he wishes he would die, 
he then clenches his fist, 
and started to cry,    

 

He puts the blade down, 

and wipes away his tears, 
he then starts to frown, 

and overcome his fears,    

 

Knowing wat to do, 
he gets to his feet, 

“i owe it to you”, 

are the words he repeats,    

 

He knows one day, 

he’ll pay back his debt, 
and that it would all be okay, 

once he’s proven his regret.

 

*

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